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Sabtu, 03 Desember 2011

Let's get married :D

This topic is always brought up whenever my mom and I are alone, like today I was chilling with my Mom in my sister's bedroom.

We were watching old Westlife video on YouTube and she asked me if it was their old song, because they look so young in the video. Then this conversation (more or less) happened

"I'm still young am not I? :D" said I
"Mhm, you're only 19"
"20 in 3 months D:"
"Yeah and you're supposed to have boyfriend when you're 20"
"No Mama, that's haraam"

And so,my mom got the hint that I don't want to have a boyfriend because it's haraam, or in shorter sentence I want to get married. SOON xD

a moment later, my father joined us and this happened :
We were lying on the bed and I was like "Moooooommmm....let's snuggle :D"
She was like"*sigh* You're 19! are you not ashamed?"
to which my father reacted "When will you go back to your old room and sleep by yourself?"

My mom said to him that, I don't wanna sleep alone, but I am too old to sleep with my parents so she suggested the only solution : Married

You know what, I would LOVE to, but this is a serious matter, I'm only 19 and still studying in university... and getting married is not as simple, as joyous, as it looks. Someone said to me, "Marriage is wonderful on the first three days, the 4th day, you woke up to someone on your right that you have to feed until death." He was joking, obviously....

But I think he made a point right there, to not getting married until you are ready mentally and FINANCIALLY.

I am very careful about this, this is not the first time I've ever thought about marriage in such young age. Now I'm trying to prepare for anything, that will be important once I found the right person..... Wish me luck :D


and follow me on tumblr B-)

Minggu, 28 Agustus 2011

my new addiction

Ramadhan Mubarak! Eid-al Fitr is near, can't wait! and I have a new addiction by the way, just discovered this group from YouTube when I was looking for Cheb Khaled's Aicha :

OUTLANDISH! Danish trio which members come from different background :)

I've been listening to their songs for 30 minutes.. LOL
I don't know much about them yet, but so far I love all of their songs that I've listened to, I'll share one of them :



I don't need nobody and I don't fear nobody, I don't call nobody but You, my one and only...

and they're awesome live!


Selasa, 16 Agustus 2011

nothing important

Boreeeeeeddd :D

THE NEW SEMESTER IS FINALLY HERE.. Dear God pity me, Monday through Thursday, all 07.30 classes until 16.00 ;_;

My priorities this semester are : good grades, of course, and...

HAVE ENOUGH SLEEP

tired to the bones on the previous semester, and I barely have time to sleep... but it's all worth it! no C on my report card! YA-HA!! --that means bigger responsibility, to keep the GPA stable this semester oO-- talking about luck...

anyway, I've been listening to Israeli singers, and TRYING so hard to learn Hebrew that sounds so GOOD.. haha :D
I listen to Idan Raichel, Harel Skaat,Ivri Lider, pretty much all Israeli famous singers, and one night, after hours of video marathon on YouTube, I stumbled upon this guy, RAN DANKER <3


If I'm not mistaken, it was a scene from an Israeli series. I know it's a playback, but still sounds so damn good and Ran looks so damn hot ><

The girl is Ninet Tayeb, his real life ex-gf who left him for Yehuda Levi! OHEMGEE, how could she chose Yehuda over him! if I had to pick one....

............. tough choice LOL

Kamis, 28 Juli 2011

insomnia strikes again brotha!

Almost 6 in the morning

MAMAMAMA YUKERO
MAMA YUKERO
MAMA YUKERO MAMA

I'm bored :(

I have NOONE to talk to, I have NOWHERE to go... I have NO FACEBOOK to wail on and my Twitter account has reached its 1,234th post which I just can't ruin it (OCD?) so I'll just talk to myself :3 -- I love talking to myself

Talking about OCD, I THINK I might have OCD O:)

According to The Great Wikipedia, OCD is :

Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD) is an anxiety disorder characterized by intrusive thoughts that produce uneasiness, apprehension, fear, or worry, by repetitive behaviors aimed at reducing the associated anxiety, or by a combination of such obsessions and compulsions. Symptoms of the disorder include excessive washing or cleaning; repeated checking; extreme hoarding; preoccupation with sexual, violent or religious thoughts; aversion to particular numbers; and nervous rituals, such as opening and closing a door a certain number of times before entering or leaving a room. These symptoms can be alienating and time-consuming, and often cause severe emotional and financial distress. The acts of those who have OCD may appear paranoid and potentially psychotic. However, OCD sufferers generally recognize their obsessions and compulsions as irrational, and may become further distressed by this realization.

I have very much time to waste, so I'll examine the character one by one :D

intrusive thoughts that produce uneasiness, apprehension, fear, or worry, by repetitive behaviors aimed at reducing the associated anxiety, or by a combination of such obsessions and compulsions

Intrusive thoughts are unwelcome involuntary thoughts, images, or unpleasant ideas that may become obsessions, are upsetting or distressing, and can be difficult to manage or eliminate.

:O those kind of thought are what running through my mind, like, everytime I'm idle :?

Let's move on; that produce uneasiness, apprehension, fear, or worry, by repetitive behaviors aimed at reducing the associated anxiety, or by a combination of such obsessions and compulsions

I think those pretty much describe myself, I'm just gonna copy those words to the "About Myself" field on every accounts I have :3 and it'll be like : I constantly have intrusive thoughts that produce uneasiness, apprehension, fear, or worry.

"I thought OCD is a bad thing"-- said voice in my head

OK, next thing is...
Symptoms of the disorder include excessive washing or cleaning; repeated checking; extreme hoarding; preoccupation with sexual, violent or religious thoughts; aversion to particular numbers; and nervous rituals, such as opening and closing a door a certain number of times before entering or leaving a room.

Symptoms of the disorder include excessive washing or cleaning -- I am used to doing excessive washing when I was a kid. I was a clean-freak. I never want to touch anyone,anything,I don't want to share the same straw with anyone else, I remember crying when my sister refused to give me a clean pants after she dropped the pants I was about to wear, everytime I get fever or I don't feel my body is doing right I'd be thinking "I'M GONNA DIE VERY SOON, THIS IS A RARE DISEASE" and no, I'm not exaggerating :D thankfully I'm recovered -- recovered, as if it's a disease for staying clean

repeated checking -- I still do this until NAO. Everytime I'm done with something, I'll check it hundred times to make sure it has been done smoothly. I even STARE at my paper assignments or my exam's answer sheets, at the name & roll number columns to check if it's THERE, or if I'd written it clear enough for my lecturers to read... say FML but I just NEED to do it.

extreme hoarding -- sorta, I feel the need to collect bills, my old text books or exam results from High School, MY ASSIGNMENTS :D -- hoarding is not the same with procrastinating -_-

preoccupation with sexual, violent or religious thoughts -- Who doesn't preoccupied with sexual thoughts? *cough* but preoccupied with violent thought is just wrong, and religious thoughts... uh, I believe what I believe, I don't remember ever preoccupied in religious thoughts, unless someone brought up the topic.

aversion to particular numbers; and nervous rituals, such as opening and closing a door a certain number of times before entering or leaving a room. -- I don't do these things :D

Wikipedia also stated that "The acts of those who have OCD may appear paranoid and potentially psychotic." (2011)

Maybe I am paranoid. A friend pointed that out to me when I told him that I was "molested" on a public transportation

The conversation went :
"You are too paranoid"
"I am alerted"
"No, it's different"
"What's the difference?"
"It's just different..."
"-__-"

and I'm sure I don't have the potential to be a psycho!

SO the conclusion is : maybe a 50-50 chance? let's say I'm just an "ababil"

Senin, 11 Juli 2011

tjaproek

yahahahaaaoowww sudah lama ga buka-buka blog....
I am supposed to write a lot, specifically in English. This is my first attempt, hope I don't fail, so here we go~~

My main intention on making this blog is to dedicate this to Ajax Amsterdam, but since TvOne has stopped broadcasting Eredivisie, I don't have something to gabble about on this thing and I can't find a good stuff to write about. The thing is I am too lazy to open this blog let alone write something on it, although I spend almost ALL MY WAKE TIME on internet, deleted my FACEBOOK account and I'm not really on twitter, but no, I didn't pick this blog to be my dearest company on internet.

I have a class at 8 this morning, I have to be ready at 6, right now is almost 2 in the morning and I'm writing bullshit on my blog. It doesn't stop right there, I have a quiz coming up, an assigment of about 200 questions, and a paper presentation that I honestly don't quite understand the topic (FML). I guess I have to stop complaining and get my business done. WISH ME LUCK ><

I'm sorry that this post didn't entertain anyone, but heyy, who would bother reading this?

Rabu, 20 April 2011

merehatkan otak yang kram

sudah lama ga ngeblog ya... banyak yg sudah terjadi, ga ada yg penting sih, tapi sepertinya disela-sela ngerjain tugas essay aku akan menulis beberapa hal yang mengganjal di hati..

1. umurku bertambah... yah, ga ada yg spesial, dan memang ga berharap ada yg spesial karena taun ini aku merasa makin dekat sama maut. Jadi, aku 'melarang' orang2 ngucapin selamat ulang tahun karena it implies (to me) that they congratulate me for being a year closer to death... oh well...
2. Ga ada semangat kuliah ya... hampir satu semester lewat, tapi rasanya semangat belajarku dimakan oleh masa-masa liburan seperempat tahun itu... ah, I will trade anything for a holiday u.u
3. nilaiku anjlok semester ini... aku merasa sangat g*bl*k semester 2 ini... fuuuhh..
4. I'm lonely..
5. Kangen sama seseorang itu ga enak.. mungkin ini karma karena aku sering bikin orang kangen pada diriku ahihihi :p

yah itulah, selama hampir satu semester ini 'dipaksa' nulis sesuatu that I know nothing about, akhirnya I can't take it anymore.. mungkin kalo ditahan sedikit lagi aku bisa gila betulan.

Bye for now, lanjut ngerjain tugas lagi! wish me luck :DD

Minggu, 19 Desember 2010

sabaaaaaaaaaar

Terapis : Mulai dari sekarang terapi setiap hari ya, sampai minimal 10 hari ke depan"
Aku : "................"
Terapis :"Udah pernah nyobain udang kan? ayam, daging? sekarang ga boleh lagi ya.. gapapa, kan udah tau rasanya"
Aku : "............."

Akibatnya, sekarang kalo liat makanan selain tahu, tempe, sayur, dan buah semua keliatan HARAM. Baru sehari agak terasa berat, ga bisa ngemil macem-macem! waw, gimana sebulan lagi ya... hmmmm tapi ada baiknya sih, aku jadi lebih sehat dan yang pasti IRIT UANG JAJAN muhahahahhaa

Harus ikhlas makan tahu tiap hari, makan sayur terus kayak kambing, jauh-jauh dari MSG, dan racun duina lainnya, ikhlas kakiku dibejek tiap hari sampe bonyok <- kedengerannya ga ikhlas*
Pokoknya kuncinya ikhlas, supaya semuanya jadi lebih gampang dijalaninnya...

Bismillah, Indonesia aja bisa masuk Final AFF, aku juga bisa menang ngelawan hawa nafsuku sendiri muhahahaha * ga nyambung*